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2008-08-11T01:31:00.002+08:00

what can u do in 1 yr ?
365 days ?
be smarter ?
know how to be a better person ?

2008-08-11T01:25:00.003+08:00

well , i duno , time comes , time passes .
everything changes
today might be a day where there is peace , love , hope , joy all over
tml might be war , hate , sadness all over .

things change , u said
nth is confirm , he said
forget it , she said
lost is what i say .

u might live ur life for 22 yrs without knowin why you are in this world .
u may spend ur 22 yrs listening to what other says.

i duno ... life goes on

2008-07-24T18:58:00.001+08:00

2008-07-24T18:57:00.000+08:00

heez my blog is up finally heez

2008-05-23T20:21:00.001+08:00

omg , i'm so suay
ya i broke my perfume n den lost my mp4 sob sob

2008-05-14T12:39:00.002+08:00

aiyo ... i veri stress lehz .,.. so sad , tis part of my life is like e first breakout of my life , so sad so sad tat i'll cry everynow n den.

dun do tings like mi if u intended to , u'll regret like mi .

life sucks

2008-05-10T23:33:00.003+08:00

i wan to get rid of

duty
sailing
ot
fire fighting
damage control

i wan to get rid of my life , o rather this is no life ,

no frens
no time
no freedom

2008-05-04T00:51:00.002+08:00

simei outing

simei

my roommates

2008-04-28T20:58:00.000+08:00

i'll be back 1 mth time
heez ... sian 730 muz reach camp ... how to survive canot zzz wor

2008-04-12T15:00:00.003+08:00

finally after so long ... e outing was to celebrate wei ming go taiwan haha ming see how much we love u
when is my sentosa !!!!
purple cat

2008-04-06T11:20:00.002+08:00

sob sob ... my sentosa trip never fails to fail de ... y like tat aiyo ... not free de not free dun wan go de dun wan to go ... 2 yrs e group never go le aiyo ...

but nvm la at least i went mustafa .... spend 70 like tat to buy groceries haha

2008-03-15T10:00:00.005+08:00

heez heez .... how is everyone ?? veri long never hang out wif my sec sch frens le . cant' rem e last time we went out wor ...

life is kinda relax 4 mi except exam la , i failed 3 out of 5 leh , never in my whole life i nid to take retest paper shit de lo . spoil my record !!!
my dearest kent
bff
yen n moi

stupid toilet pic of mine

2008-02-10T16:53:00.000+08:00

hapi new yr
but i duno wat i wan tis yr
haiz
valentine day comin le alone again lolz

maybe

2007-12-29T01:05:00.000+08:00

Maybe i'm e wrong person , so wrong things always happen to me .
Need not tell mi how good i am , it's not your fault .
Maybe it's just me , maybe it's just my problem

There's no reason for me to blame you , and i know that you never read this and will never bother to read this .

Maybe things just is not meant to be , i love you , yes i do , which is why i let you left that day without sending me home .

If one day , we are fated , we maybe again .

Maybe all these were excuses , or maybe you really have your reason
Becuz i love you , i let go
Bcuz i love you , i hope you will do better without me
Bcuz i love you alot alot alot reali alot ...

2007-11-08T14:17:00.000+08:00

i miss everyone heez where r u guys ?

rena , lc , emily , cs , eric ,vin , fu hai , jaz , yu ming , dale , wei ming , ee koon , shang ming , raymond , so many

2007-10-15T16:21:00.000+08:00

life sucks ...

haven heard frm my frens for so long so long ...
haven been myself for ages ...

where is me ?
where is my place ?
where i belong ?
where are my love ones ?
where are my friends ?
where ? where ? where ?

haiz ... my lonely life

2007-09-30T19:29:00.000+08:00

haiz .. every sun tis time i wil feel veri emo . cuz i bookin in soon le so sad rite ??
out of 10 gals i'm e onli one tat fail leh ... den they can book out every fri 6pm , mi leh every sat 12pm . so big diff de ...

alone in a 4 person bedroom , if u all free on fri pls cal mi ba ... haiz ... i duno how to survive there sia ... wat i failed was chin up n sbj , time already so short le , stil book out on sat . hey frens , pardon mi if i hv no time to spare cuz wat is happening is against my wish too .

u all nth to do can help mi pray aso ar ... cuz if i fail n fail n fail wil gana breached contract ...
aiya , e onli ting i can say is i hate my current life , but again there is a price to pay for everyting

4 yrs veri fast de rite ???
at least i hope so ...

2007-09-23T19:49:00.000+08:00

haiz .. muz book in le , i hate it man ..
when can tis be over ?
nvm 1 yr veri fast de rite ?
hope i can pass ippt n get tis f**kin life over soon

2007-09-20T00:07:00.000+08:00

2007-09-19T22:36:00.000+08:00

2007-09-19T21:47:00.000+08:00

thx everyone for my bd :)

2007-09-06T23:28:00.000+08:00

haiz ... stay in life is much more earlier den expected so sad ...
i dun wan to spend my 21st bd in camp man !! tat sucks

heez btw pls come after 530pm on e day ok ?
if u guys r stil wondering wat to buy mi , maybe u all can consider these

~ watch
~ jacket
~ perfume
~ diamond butterfly
~ WALLET (yeah i tink i nid a wallet more )
~ bag ?

heez pls ar synchornise dun everyone buy mi e same ting wait i cry ar haha

watch n jacket i prefer adidas / puma / TITUS best la for watch heez
wallet i like ozozo glam , o any other branded de la lol ...

ultimately is u guys who buy mi la .. its e tots tat counts so put in effort ar lol !!! (Stil hinting)

2007-09-02T01:01:00.000+08:00

less den 2 mths ...
finish le

anyway my bd wil be held in my hz :) on e actual day

2007-08-26T13:35:00.000+08:00

wat should i say abt tis ?
i have hundreds n thousands of emotions in mi , but i duno wat to say , how to express it ...
it's all over for us i guess , things hasnt been workin well since e first day ... clashes in point of view so on n on .... perhaps wat might seem to be is not wat it is

life's nv easy , to hv pp out there against u , thinkin they r better ,
should i say i nv put in effort to be there , which is why tings r happening
i duno ...
so wrong , so confused .

can i leave ? back to e usual life , e usual self ....

2007-08-13T18:23:00.000+08:00

yeah my bd comin it will be held in my house , it's on 15 sept so pp pls make urself free for mi k ?
21 yrs old le lo .. old lady ...

2007-08-11T13:15:00.001+08:00

so sad my sentosa dream gone , too little pp go le ... sob sob ... i dun care ar i die die wan go ...

2007-08-05T19:37:00.000+08:00

i'm so unhapi .....

2007-07-31T20:39:00.000+08:00

heez haven update for quite some time le ... i gt tis throat infection leh ...
e doc say i got hit by bacteria so i nid antibiotics , got 2 days mc too :)

I GAINED 3KG IN 1 MONTH , well i duno how i did it la somehow i'm so ugly now , rena say it's due to my muscle but den i tink i grow fats all over la , canot le muz go loss weight .

my target 49kg by dec , hopefully it can be done :) sure can one la heez

Goodbye Andrew !!

2007-07-17T20:48:00.000+08:00

This was e last time i saw him , andrew teo .i call him my spiritual buddy lol thx to rena i get to c him e last time . it's so hard to put it into words , after e ubin outing he called mi when he reached home saying tis

"i'm reali veri hapi today , i like e nature , it fun reali fun " den i hung down e phone to go to bed. So so regret tat i hadnt have talk to him abit longer .

Thx 4 e treat ar .. haven had e chance to treat u to beepu yet when i get my pay . He is such a kind soul who offered if i wan to lend $ frm him on e ubin outing .

Come to tink of it , it seems to have been all predestinated , he called mi more den usual , we talk abt relationship , tarot card , family matters , career , frenship , studies , healing . He told mi he wans to find a gf , wans to be a photographer when he finished his 4 years bond . He was so full of energy when he talks abt his bike , buy his bike b4 he got his license , spends thousands of money on it , talk about goin JB wif mi . But den his fav ting was e one tat caused his death too .

I visited Andrew when he was in coma , i was so confident tat he will wake up n talk to me , but den he chose to left still . He left mi when i was in one of my hardest moment during my bmt as much as i wish he would be there as i was reali havin a hard time dealing if my bunkmates. But like wat our fren say , each of us have our own life experenicens n every one of them is meant to be a lesson.

Thank you so much , for being a fren , somemore once told mi a fren in need is a fren indeed n u reali are

Thank you so much , for helpin mi wif my project during fyp if it werent for u i would have failed .

Thank you so much , for lending mi a listening ear whenever i have problems

Thank you so much , for helpin mi to get over e death of my death

Thank you so much , for understanding me from my point of view

Thank you so much , for puting so much faith in me tat i'll enter navy when e whole world even my mom trust tat i won get in .

Thank you so much , for letting mi understand more about life

Most of all , Thank you so much for leavin mi at e point of time where i know i nid to be independant , nid to put more faith in myself . U left after i had most of my problems sloved .

Thank you so much , for tellin mi not to make other pp's problem my problem .

Take care buddy , hope u r happier there

Those tings tat u said i'll rem by heart .

Learn tat

It's hard to get a fren , moreover a soulmate .

Some people wasted their life not getting one ,

Treasure all around you even ur enemy , because life is reali fragil .

big group photo
5n1 clan

nice pose
actually i stil dno here is where leh

now reali left we 2 le !!!
ah toooooooot na
haha i'm e devil
bye andrew
so funi

haha design by andrew
on e way to ubin
taken again by andrew
taken by tsm

2007-07-15T01:57:00.000+08:00

Finally my blog skin is done (60%) lol stil nid help :) these are e pics tat i took b4 i went tekong

Ktv for sheena bd , my bmt

thx kent for e mickey !
i have 3

safra
where is alan ?

gathering ??

Angel Z
we r all on 1 side , except sheena haha
e 4 gals

Stooopid bag

crashed !!!

Mos with my MC2 colleuge

lawrence

joe

2007-06-22T02:55:00.001+08:00

omg !! i'm leaving
sob sob

2007-06-20T00:43:00.000+08:00

hehe .... days reali can run veri fast ... u nv know how limit time is , until u hv a constrain . everyone blog frenship i aso wan !!!

erm ... wat r frens 4 ? To me a real fren

should trust u and have faith in u under any circumstances
stick with u though thick n thin (loyalty)
no hidden agenda
honest enuf to tel u ur blunder
change u 4 e better , but not to his o her liking

cut short la , trust n honesty heez but i aso duno how many frens i hv la ... but nvm cuz i tink u nv know e true self of a person until someting happen

wat might seem to be , might not be

who might seem to be there , might not be there

where u wan to be , might not be e final destination

u onli live once

i mean everyting is nt lastin , but actually e rules apply to everyting

one fine day ,

ur parents wil leave b4 u do

ur frens wil hv lesser time 4 u as they gt their career , family , frens

ur life partner may nt be wif u til death bed

even ur kids wil leave u to start their own family

so dun let all e issues bother u , we should cherish each other !! even if ur enemies cuz u nv get a 2nd chance to meet them again , to know them all over again !!

like i always say

FORGIVE N FORGET BUT DUN FORGET E LESSON !!

ok enuf of my nagging haha mama ask mi zzz le nite

2007-06-18T03:13:00.000+08:00

.... so now onli left u n mi liao
when i'm gone it wil be u n lc liao
haha soon den i tink we all go seperate ways , i hope tat won happen

haha we went ubin so tired la ..... but e pics was nice ... yeah

2007-06-15T01:13:00.000+08:00

hehe
so i get my wish fulfilled i hope
last stage le ... hopefully everting goes well

went lunch wif lc n rena , hey thx 4 e pizza treat ar haha
u all dun worri next time got mi le !!!! lol
haha my first pay i treat u all eat ok ? u 2 choose haha but dun too ex ar .....

these 2 gals ar so jia lat , i haven take pay ask mi buy tings liao ,wan mi go aboard dun wan c mi rite ??? haha especially rena ar ... u reali change alot ar , first say i noisy , 2nd dun wan talk to mi le , now even can disturb mi ar !!! good la i go le c how u die ar wahahahahaha .... i so sad n angry la , haha lc u wan wallet ar ??? u wait ar i go thailand buy fake de haha jkjk

but nvm we say hao le , if i come back they sure muz pei mi de
hopefully all tings goes well ba :)

2007-06-12T01:08:00.000+08:00

worked 4 days in IT fair so sianz ... but e pp there not bad la hehe
went to ray's ns gathering ... thx ar ray 4 e surprise ,but i tink no hope lo anyway i aso too shy to take action la
aiya nvm ..... let nature takes it course ba i nt gan chiong aso
i won do anyting de ar .....

2007-06-04T03:56:00.000+08:00

ok ... how is tis new skin goin on ? stil improvin i hope

haha i so hapi la i zzz 16 hours yesterday , suppose to meet them go PC show but den as usual i zzz la , rena called at 11 i ask her cal at 1 den i tel her i nt gg cuz i wan zzz in e end i zzz til 5
16 HOURS one shot... can u imagine how i feel lolz. den these pp aso ar ... go eat my fav kfc n buffet !!! if nt 4 my tution i sure go down when i wake up de

pai sei ar pp pai sei u ...sori sori
so now is 4 am i feel sleepy
i wonder how long i wil zzz today

canot too long cuz I MUZ CHANGE MY PAIR OF SLIPPERS
FUCKIN $40 , i buy wrong size lol
hopefully can change cuz i wear 1 day b4 hehe

sori ar so many bad words

2007-06-01T07:51:00.000+08:00

wat is tis bloggie ting doin ?? i dun get it , blog is suppose to be an online diary isn't it ? if it's a diary , isn't it suppose to be personal ?

a blog is suppose to let frens whom u hv nt met up recently to know abt hw u r gettin on in life rite ? but seems like it's doin harm too . a close fren of mine once told mi certain tings r nt meant to be say out n i'm tat type tat says out e wrong ting @ e wrong time to e wrong person n i cant reali change it since it's a IQ pro .

well , i dun deny tat i dun hv high IQ , but den i do agree tat sometings r nt meant to be said . even written !!

an excellent example wil be e recent fight between hui xian n mi , b4 blog came hot , we onli quarrel when we c each other n before e next time we meet again, time would hv healed all wounds but den look at now , daily update of quarreling . i cant help tinkin tat blog is providing pp another way out find fault against each other .

another example .. u pp know la

so pp pls pls be careful abt wat u write , even if u nv named anyone . u nv know who wil read it n how they wil feel , even they did nt voice out e unhappiness.

i can understand tat some pp might say " tis is my blog , i'm juz expressing my feelings , n wat's happening around "
but if writin in blog wil hurt another person , y nt tink abt e consequences b4 u actually type it down ?

ok i know ... time to know where i stand lol . although my IQ is 100 haha but i do speak sense sometimes la , i hope tis entry makes sense to u pp .
whoever is readin it

2007-05-31T03:25:00.000+08:00

ok ... can u pp imagine tis is e first time tat we take photosticker ? as in one tat can be designed after we like know for so long ....

can c they strongly against mi rite? one " mei " one "siao"
den mi is "mo" somemore write chu in front of mi

my design , more sensible rite ?
c another one against mi !! we all had e world peace sign but obviously mine has been covered la , n they beat mi . n surround mi wif pigs .......
my design ... but i'm a gal !!! i swear !!!
erm ... duno who did tis

2007-05-24T12:09:00.000+08:00

now left onli mi n u le ... sob sob

wonder wat wil happen to us
chalet

tis was e last time we went out ....
ray bd
duno when

yr 3 .... chinese new yr time

realise any diff ?

last yr when we went vivo

yr 3 ... lesser pics of us e M4...

yr2 .... lc bd
lc n rena yr 1
, lc n hx
after grad we 3 went nyp except hx ,durin poly times we stil look close rite :)

but we used to be like tis ..... together in sch , go out together , eat , study , play together .... those were e days ....

2007-05-20T03:30:00.000+08:00

went chalet wif lc , rena . so sian la e 3 of us regretted goin leh . no pp entertain us , no bed to zzz, but nvm at least we get someting done about goin to ubin le ... n e gals talk wasnt bad too

fu hai thx alot ar ...despite we so late u stil save 3 chicken n sting ray for us , haha we appreciate it alot ar ...
hehehe
at least nv reali wasted our trip there la
we 3 took alot of pic ar
den talk at e balcony while eatin noodle ,although most of e time is we 3 tgt but nvm la we can entertain ourselves well haha , den we disturb each other , tickle here n there thx to mi la .. haha

yeah anyone wan take pic wif mi haha

2007-05-16T03:11:00.000+08:00

stupid hiking la.... waste mi time . we meet 10 at ocbc duno wich idioit slp til 1045 in e end meet at 12 . reach there at 2 . DALE la so late .....

wow , e last time i hiked was when i was 17 la , 4 yrs ago . tis time reali feel damn different . starting rena n i already dying le haha ....
RENA , u change le la , say wan to talk to mi miss mi , den i talk u say i noisy . shit u la ... haha

fu hai took e lead la , took us to those hard n rocky path , make mi always fall to death , scaring them . i counted e steps 143 steps up n down . so jia lat .

finally went on top hill , den i saw e stupid komodo dragon , i tink i'm e onli one who saw it cuz i rush to take a seat , e toot so big , rite in front of mi walk so slow inside e bush , i wan to run aso no strength to run , make mi shout ......

haha den we went to ngee ann poly to bath , i ask rena far o nt she say ok ar . i tot i weak , but den on train she tel mi e distant veri long who say 15 to 20 min nia . haha yuan lai she tire u ask her wat she aso say ok de haha

den we went marina square to meet wei ming n kenny , like tat lo

haha hope we can go more often ar . rena n i wan to puala unbin leh , c rocks haha

2007-04-29T12:35:00.000+08:00

lol u all say la .... accurate o nt !!
veri accurate la

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to obedience and warmth.
In love, you feel the most alive when things are straight-forward, and you're told that you're loved.
You'd like to your lover to think you are stylish and alluring.
You would be forced to break up with someone who was ruthless, cold-blooded, and sarcastic.
Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future... one you can grow with.
Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.
You think of marriage as something that will confine you. You are afraid of marriage.
In this moment, you think of love as commitment. Love only works when both people are totally devoted.

What'>http://www.blogthings.com/keystoyourheartquiz/">What Are The Keys To Your Heart?/div>

2007-04-29T11:25:00.000+08:00

i so bored
anyone readin my blog ma ? y no pp tag mi de lol ..... nvm i tag myself haha ..... aiya ....

2007-04-25T02:30:00.000+08:00

if u c mi blog means i'm bored lol ...

i so bored la cant zzz , life without edmund is bored la .... but muz get used to it lo .
got so many thots but duno how to write into words ....

time heals all wounds agree ?
someone who hurts u deeply , do u stil hate them now ?
someting tat u wan alot now , will u stil wan them 10 yrs later ?
someone tat u love now , will u stil wan to love them in 10 yrs time ?
it's not bcuz i no confidence in myself , but i dun love you enuf to love u for 10 yrs .
tat's y i rather not start it ....

chim rite ?
but is reali wat i wan to say to edmund la
hehe i tink my eng nt bad ar
anyone wan to use muz rem copy rite hor

2007-04-22T23:06:00.000+08:00

aiyo eh ....
i wan to stay singly y no pp belive mi ...
lol

so sad wor ...
pp come in ur life , they walk away
helpless as u are , but to watch them go
take it easy , cuz nth can last forever

2007-04-18T16:19:00.000+08:00

..........
i'm sick la ... nan de leh ... e last time i was reali sick was sec 4 o sec 5 i tink . my fever 38.2 leh ... so rare ....
went to c doc at 12 midnite so x la ... $75 so dun go if u can hold ar ... reali x ....e doc veri cute lo giv mi 8 types of medi i tink tis time i reali nv waste $ ar ....

thx e pp who show care n concern 4 mi :)

2007-04-13T13:24:00.000+08:00

sori ar e pic so long

2007-04-08T04:35:00.000+08:00

it's tis guy's sunglasses n cap ! does he looks like mark lee ?

DK , lao da !!!reali look like maffia rite ?/

look like horror movie rite ?

Horror movie 2

I wan to be spokesperson for e dao huay lol ....

some pics tat we took today , haha it's class gatherin , they met 1 yishun control but i woke up at 230 lol , i went online n saw jaz , in e end mi , jaz , weiming , eric , fu hai reach there at 510 . hahaha so i was nt e onli late one hor , in fact i was e earlist among e latest leh haha , i spent 30 mins to wait ming , 30 mins to wait eric , 30 mins to wait fu hai lol ....

2007-04-04T15:59:00.000+08:00

aiya ... shit la pp we reali long time no meet up le ....
aiyo ... someone say i fat le leh , gained weight
someone say i veri fat
lol so many comments
canot make it la
nan dao muz force mi walk e route again ma ?
rottin ma canot blame

2007-04-02T22:20:00.002+08:00

hehe rottin ...so sian ... can anyone tel mi how to rot for so long ?? 2 months le lo .... oei eric dun say " u nt finding bf le ar " lol ...
k la i sort it out le , pp who i interested in r always nt interested in mi , so c fate ba ....
hehe i juz fix my com ... so got my ex bf pic .... haha he reali look like wei ming meh ? i did promise him tat i won post it online but den again he nv keep his promise too la

2007-04-02T22:20:00.001+08:00

2007-03-22T12:10:00.000+08:00

hehe 8mths single :)

lol so long no blog le . i went to work IT fair with rena , lc , n choco well got to know many frens there so hapi :)

haha my customer get num frm mi hor !!! so dun say i ugly ar lol

stil tryin to be a woman while my dear xian mei yearns to be a gal , i wonder how we click 4 so long , abt raymond's bd i didnt mean it haha but u c wat goes ard comes ard . so reflect on wat u did to others b4 tinkin y these happens to u :)

2007-03-07T00:03:00.001+08:00

omg !!!! sob sob ... 2nd person say i'm a gal nt a woman ...
i wan to change my dressing le la ... shit !!!!

airport

2007-03-04T03:09:00.000+08:00

they reali nth de !!! haha directed by moi n wei jin
we r fightin over him
a world of 2
zhi wei n moi
snoppy n carol

haha pretty but no brain
fashion show 1
fashion show 2
carol ... dun believe them u look as pretty in real
my blur blur face

lao da n moi
their backview

moi carol sofian

lang sui ju ho lolz

i woo him for 3 years le !!! pls dun reject mi !
haha jokin jokin

sofian n moi

wat a hapi day it is today hehe .... met an old fren i wouldnt say who he wil mock at mi lol ....

hehehe my airport outing with my poly frens wonder when we will meet again

2 diff peson who shares diff perspectives

2007-03-02T09:37:00.000+08:00

i duno if u wil read tis
... i miss u ...
u know who u r ....
sorry ......
though i know it won help

shuai

2007-02-26T03:15:00.001+08:00

ok i'm bored n i cant zzz . dale told mi mi i gt this michael thingy goin on in mi tat i'm HIGHLY OBSESSED over him ,ok i admit to it but den again ..... erm ...

i watched seducing mr perfect as recommended by eric , it was reali a nice show n i tink all gals should watch it cuz e guy is simply perfect lo ... i tink he is everyone's dream gal . at least mine la haha , quiet ,tall , handsome , smart ... omg

hahahahahha i know u all won believe rite , cuz my taste usually sucks , but reali lo if i get him ar i promise i won look ard again haha ...btw i find him lookin like lawrence leh e nyp 4 pointer leh ... so shuai !!!

2007-02-21T15:15:00.000+08:00

wei ming bd .... hehe

2007-02-21T14:54:00.001+08:00

hehe .... i miss michael like no meanin hor !!! but kind of miss him reali . we both online but nv talk ..... bored bored rottin at hm

at kbox wif carol , hala king , jin , fong chee ho

last day i c mike too

2007-02-20T03:41:00.000+08:00

aiyo i juz realise i no tag board leh !!! hahah nevertheless thx ken 4 e skin ... sori ar pp giv him sometime i tink he wil make a tag board 4 moi de hehe

2007-02-16T16:10:00.000+08:00

aiya i'm so upset lo i have been gd tis yr so no gifts for mi this vday so quiet lol unlike last yr . single life nt reali tt gd but i have been like tt 4 half a yr le . however gd gal life isnt much better .i rejected 3 dates tis yr , hopin tat tat idioit wil turn back . shit , sucky

well today is e last day i see him , everytin is over ... he stil wear til so nice , u know i like guys wif jeans , tees , long sleeve shirt . but den again haiz no more le la .... sob sob .... how i wish tat he is mine but i tink he should be gg out wif some gals out there ba

2007-02-10T22:32:00.000+08:00

haha finally i wash my hair , has been 2 days le wor ,aiyo damn damn heart broken again , heard from zhi wei tat maybe mike has a new target le cuz his msn nick ... n i tot so too if nt he won so heartless ba .... haiz

ok i went clubbin last nite wif dale n javier so sian rite ? onli we 2 but luckily they gt fren there gt to sky too :) saw a guy who i tink is kinda cute but all of them say looks terriblely ugly lo i tink there is someting wrong with my taste ba as usually

some pics last nite

2007-02-07T23:12:00.000+08:00

aiyo ... i'm so damn heart broken , no matter wat i do , how hard i try stil e same , yup i said i won giv up . i didnt , i went rena hz n baked my second set of cookies , get wee tat ching to giv it to him , but he says he dun wan on diet !!!

i didnt flirt ard la e guys whom i hang out wif onli dale , ming , eric n these pp nia .... n i actually changing , trying hard to save the broken relationship . i nv done such things b4 , so damn damn damn damn it , stupid mi .

aiya .. should i stay o should i go ? if onli u read tis ar ... idioit ... u r turnin my life upside down , maybe u r juz nt worth mi ... can anyone, tell mi should i giv up ? o die hard trying ?

2007-02-04T12:48:00.000+08:00

went study yest , butt itchy called fion lol tt stupid eric la .... i tink she gt mood swing sia suddenly scold mi , i tink maybe bcuz i was disturbing her wif her date la (but she wouldnt admit tt ) lol. she told mi " u wil nv get didi la he's foolin wif u " although i agree but i won giv up de la . eh but i duno wat to do too cuz he's givin mi cold shoulder . but den again nvm la .

aiyo new yr comin , went to buy cny clothes with lc they all haha jaz say my dress look like song ka de so sad . n my shoes dun fit leh , 1 comin out 1 too tight .sob sob how how ?

valentine comin le wor i tink i should be spend wif my books ba , to tink of last yr i spent it wif xb n cny eve we even went to watch fireworks . i tink tis yr wil be much much diff ba . nvm reduce my bad karma like wat fion say !! hor hor beware of urself too hor , wat goes ard comes ard ...
so long no hang out wif them le wonder how r they ar . ken , lan , na , fion no nid wori la i know she gt her own entertainment hahaha ....

bored boring

2007-01-30T02:45:00.000+08:00

aiyo i'm bored ... so bored bored .... if onli we didnt end up in tt way , now stil gt pp talkin to mi over e phone . kind of late le ,but i cant zzz leh , gt no one to talk to mi i'm so lonely lol got to get out of tis shity mess soon , find one new , but where so easy to find !!! i called so many pp all wan zzz , if nt they outside , suan le ba

k i went to fu hai chalet durin e weekend it was kind of fun la , since long i hv such fun le heez , thx rena 4 acc mi go chalet stay , so long no catch up with chew siang aso le , did tarot with alot of them haha wei ming de most fun . got to know ann n cat too .thx fu hai ar 4 e treat aso ...

u all ar u all , rem wat my tarot say ar if nt waste my effort ar here r some tt i rem de haha :

rena ar : muz hv some courage to do tings ar u know wat to do le
lc : rem to face reality ar dun be too dependant on others dun live in ur own world
eric : ur passion is buring ar dun do tings 4 others onli muz spare a tot 4 ownself
dale : u r nt perfect ar u gt alot of flaws
fu hai : dun tink too much

as 4 mi so funi , they wil wan burn my card cuz i keep askin same ting everyday haha , but i stil duno wat to do ma , maybe i'll giv up a while ba den continue once everyting stablize le . hehee

2007-01-25T14:01:00.000+08:00

haiyo ... tml is 26 le , 1 mth le he reject mi ... haiz 1 mth le i stil haven giv up yet kind of rare horz ? so long le i stil no die hope completely ... sian lehz see him in sch daily , if he wear til veri shuai i will haiz ....

lian hong xin tiao jia su ... aiyo ... nvm i wil giv up de ....
erm tis mth is a gd mth to celebrate u all know y ? cuz i single half a yr le , + he reject mi a mth le haha so tis is a mth to celebrate ...

2007-01-18T16:39:00.000+08:00

hai yo ... ya la , i tried n miracle did nt happened , e response i gt was cold shoulder , cold shoulder n cold shoulder , he is shunning while i'm chasing
haha , how can they ever be together ??

i took 1 hour to ponder to cal him o nt ,
he took 1 min to finish e call.

i took 3 days to make spaghtti ,
he took 3 min to reply mi .

i took 3 weeks to have tots to giv up ,
he took onli 3 days to clear 4get mi.

haha tis kind of feelin is reali sucky , eric ar ... u know e world nid more positive pp , n sheena is e diff one . tat's y miracle nv happen to her b4 haha .. while fools like us who pin hopes at least wil hv someting to hope for .
erm .. for my future plan i duno to giv up o nt la since left onli 1 week to see him nia , anyway wait til i buy e tarot card den say ba heez ...

maybe i'm stil blur , foolish , gullible , but i'm hapi e way i m
rem pp k ? everyting gd o bad is mean to learn !!!
haha i tink i'm learned , n he makes mi learn even more tat u nv try there wil be no hope at all at least i tried , so i'm hapi !!!

my failure

2007-01-13T19:34:00.000+08:00

lol , i did try , i cook spaghetti for him but stil he say "sorry i dun wan to hurt u anymore " haha i duno wat is stoppin him , maybe he already know tat we r nt suitable tt's y he choose to give up ba . but for mi i'm stil here waiting , perhaps i'll continue to try ba ... duno , but so far e response from him wasnt gd la ,
it's kind of hard to see him in class , smiling , lauffing while i feel hurt inside , so far he has nt contacted mi feel so sad , i went to pray leh , e lot say someone is stoppin us together and nid gui ren to help us , haha but who is gui ren who is xiao ren lol , so hard to find . anyway i aso duno wan to giv up o nt leh , wat u all tink ?
shall i giv them to him ? e cookies tat we make

over !!!!

2007-01-06T02:41:00.000+08:00

eh y no pp read my blog de ar haha ... nvm at least i can write wif ease since no one is readin it lol ... haha ok .. michael n i r reali nt getting together , yup i'm kind of upset la , but i tried he stil says it's best 4 us to remain as frens , erm i duno wat to do la.... he says all these r words n nt actions lol ... how to prove , i gal gal la i shy shy aso lol .... i know i dun sound sad but i m lo , wat if i fail again if i try ?
wat if i try n he stil says " i appreaciate wat u hv done , but i tink it's best 4 us to be frens " ? i sure canot take it de ... i aso duno how a part of mi say keeps on tryin , another part says i might fail o maybe i should be real tis time say gd bye to these beautiful memories ba

2006-12-30T02:19:00.000+08:00

eh yup i blog again le , so bored if i know holiday wil be so bored i should get a job lol now i stay at hm daily doin nth leh ... life is so sian , didi go le lol wich makes mi more bored n maybe we might nt end up together aso haha ... nvm ba ... i can learn to take tings easy .

pai sei ar eric ur bd i nv go , e stupid xian mei veri gd fren put mi aeroplane , but luckily i gt tze kent heez ... thx god ... we went bugis juz now and guan yuan drove us to eat prata , but den he kept on losin his way ... sch finally goin to start on wed le , but seem long to mi eh stil hv 4 more days to go . wonder wat i should do leh , and how to celebrate new yr eve aso , up til now no program yet .

tink i'm reali mean gal , cuz i hurt someone again unlike others , tis time haha tis person tel mi tis
" i won contact u much le , wat i wan i wil get , wat i canot get i rather dun wan , u r hurtin mi"
lol ... hahaha i swear i did nth ok !

however i tink tat at tis rate i'm goin i'll scare all e guys ard mi haha , so i decide to change 4 e better yeah ! erm well c how ba

I didn't want to be inside. I didn't want to be outside. I didn't want to be anywhere. I didn't want to kill myself, but I just felt like I didn't want to be anywhere. I didn't want anybody to be around me.

http://men.msn.com/articlees.aspx?cp-documentid=1628449

2006-11-29T22:34:00.000+08:00

ooo yeah . finally i make a come back le . tml til sun i go expo sell lappy anyone free go drop by ba. eh ... i veri sian leh i single 4 mths le hahah surprise rite ? i veri guai also no flirt flirt . i wan to change le , erm ... i wan to change frm a gal to a woman cuz someone tel mi tat i dress like a gal nt a woman ...

week 2

2006-10-26T14:42:00.000+08:00

heez finally i blog le .... so hapi , sch start le wor now week 2 le , ok la my new class , gettin along fine with everyone . Lucky my project gt pp help mi to do if nt i duno how to cry ar ....
Eh , has been 3 mths since i'm single le .... but nvm i'll keep on waitin til 3 yrs de . So long nv go club le anyone wana go ? but best is stay yishun also la den can share cab .

i miss everyone so much , suddenly feel like so loner leh like no fren like tt , been busy with duno wat aso haha . mon to thu sch , fri , sat , sun aso duno do wat haha no time no time like tt . or rather to say i spend my time doin nth again ba.

my dear xian mei dun sad ar u gt mi stil , ur lover heez
my dear lc happi 7 mth aso ba wish u n zw wil be tgt long long
my dear rena wor.... hahahahhaha u know u know

last day

2006-09-20T08:54:00.000+08:00

today is my last day of work in imh le , quite sad cum hapi , sad cuz the pp here are gd , e job is slackin , and i wil miss tis place . hapi cuz i can slack at home le haha , hapi cuz i can find a higher pay job too :)

i so hapi abt my bd , although my wish did nt come thru my xiao bai didnt find mi at all
-cuz my colleuge whom know mi less den 3 weeks bought mi a cake which surprise me .
-ah bang bought me a cake too , and treat mi to supper hehe
-jia rong who brought mi a cake aso lol
-and my frens who gave mi a present tt i love , and thx dale for e efforts , haha althoug eric say nt nice however it's e thoughts tt counts lol.

e clubbing day was fantastic , i get to know a banker from australi , terence hook out some gals lol . poor specs guy i pity him ....

anyway thx there everyone :)

last day le wor

2006-08-25T11:43:00.000+08:00

today last day le ... hehe e people here nt bad la haha ... i spend 12 weeks here doin nth lo .... tml goin to new enviroment le , goin IMH to work as a clerk , new experience . but e workin hours so long , nvm gt fren acc mi ( rena n lc) haha i so hapi .

REcently so many pp break up , 1 by 1 after me ... reali a curse lo , once hv stead all hv stead , once break all break aso . see we so united ... life goes on ... but i stil hope he comes back . lol many pp wan to scold mi liao for hvin tis tinking . haha

~~~ As u nv know tml tings so no point pondering so much today rite ? ~~~

2006-08-04T15:52:00.000+08:00

since 8 days , we have broken up . People dun worri about me . i onli shi lian ma , nt e first time aso la juz that tis time i was happier , i climb higher and fell much more harder nia . u all know mi de rite , i'm a bitch so my ability to recover is quite high la.

sorri pp nv go sentosa wif u all cuz my mood nt gd , but once i free i sure go de . u all goin every sun rite ? and my dear eric , if u c tis i wan to tel u that day when i broke up , u send mi a sms saying "li chuan wat happen to kelly and her boyfriend " i feel like killin u sia , send wrong sms at wrong time. anyway thx 4 e concern .

den i wan to wait for my ex . i wan stay single for 3 yrs but i know no pp believe me la . he veri cruel ar delete all our pic from my com so sad .but i tink i stil like him alot la .ya lo tat should be it la

anyway these are e pp that i wan to giv a big thx to 4 scoldin mi and being wif me . muz put kent's name first if nt he angry

kent
sheena
fion
alan
lichuan
rena
xian mei

and a small one to eric although he send e wrong sms at wrong time to e wrong person . and vinc n max

ya lo thx alot ar heeez

5th day

2006-07-26T12:05:00.000+08:00

haiz ... 5 days without he , day and nite i kept cryin . i duno y , e moment i tink of him i'll cry , on bus at work toilet everywhere. haiz i miss him alot whenever i on my hp there wil nv be news of him .

my days are so miserable , i love him alot miss him alot .we agree to marry , agree to go aboard , agree to celebrate my bd so many tings we agree on . he say he wil send mi home after he return to work , spend lesser time wif me but wil stil acc mi , so many tings it's nt 4get den can 4get .

even i drink lemon tea i'll tink of him. i no longer eat my fav food cuz i tink of him. on express way i can c myself on his bike holdin on to him . so many memories , all gone , say gone n it is gone. how can love be so harsh when we use to be so close ?

how can he be so cruel to me , dissappear in thin air like tt, even promise to stay as frens but shun me when i contact him . so many tings he lied to me , i reali cant believe tis when e person closet to u , beside u wil be someone that hurt u so deep so deep

2006-07-22T23:41:00.000+08:00

its all over mi n him . we are nt gg to be tgt anymore. tt's it i'm single again lol , anyone wan help mi find boi boi ma ?

i veri veri sad ar , nv been better . anyone who knws mi wil know how much i love him , how much effort i put in . but wat is nt meant to be is nt meant to be . nvm ... i tink i nid silence , time to tink through . air to breath .

over is over ......

2006-07-11T10:04:00.000+08:00

haiyo ... veri busy ar . been busy quarrellin wif xb lol, he keep no time 4 mi den fion n sheena say he gt gal outside i sob sob .

my boss siao again leh , after i wear slipper for 6 weeks den he say mi so i change shoe lo so pain.nvm stil .
he ask mi to clear table b4 tml 8 am but i start work at 9 leh. den he say unwanted paper should be thrown away , so he veri smart he pick up on e floor den throw back to e floor again i so angry lo , where gt pp liek tt de.

week 3

2006-06-23T12:34:00.000+08:00

week 3 le at least i'm 1/4 way thu rite ? haiz yo here veri bored ar nth to eat. know wat ? week 1 i eat 4 days kway tiao dry , 1 day mix veg rice. week 2 i eat 2 days kway tiao dry , 2 day rice , 1 day mee hoon goreng , week 3 i eat 1 day mee hoon goreng , 1 day rice , 3 days kway tiao dry . best of all even the canteen aso sell 2 food nia , mee hoon goreng n mix rice lol.

so basically every week i onli eat 3 kinds of food , veri sian ar help !! i wan kfc , bake rice sob sob , how am i goin to spend another 9 weeks here eating e same tings ??

2006-06-20T10:40:00.000+08:00

sat is such an exciting day , moring i went FT with LC , haha e FT say i hot temper ask mi listen to my mama say i can go aboard study if i put in effort but last sem liao my gpa onli 1.78 nia study sai ar haha.

den i went rena hz do cookies,chocolate n oreal cheescake. e cookies ok la mama say nt fragrance n sweet enough , chocolate total failure ar haha rena la ask her melt she dun wan say use hot water. haha e cheescake aso nt success la.

i went home put tings den plan to go out wif ming n dale ,but i late 40 min like tt den ming go home. left mi n dale 2 person ming stil ask us enjoy ar so we went movie at sun plaza haha funi rite ? watch e omen gt scared mi twice la but nt a veri nice movie

2006-06-15T09:20:00.000+08:00

so fast i know motor 1-2 a yr le , yest plan to celebrate de , but last min he say muz cancel . i so angry !!! haiz week 2 thu nia omg so many days to go how to surive, veri long didnt go out le leh anyone wan go out ma haha, werid great sg sales but no pp ask mi go out leh so pathetic , ren yuan bu hao

2006-06-12T10:55:00.000+08:00

heez long long no blog le ... eeeeeee attachment at sengkang so suay so far , somemore pay lowest ar 420 nia sucks , i'm workin as an auditor now , so sianz but lucky e company onli gt 4 pp includin moi , sometimes they all go fix mrt den i alone in office . quite satisfying cuz i can sing song ar lol . workin hours is 9-6 anyone lives near sengkang ? wan find mi eat lunch ma o send mi home lol .omg week 2 onli 10 more weeks to go

sun

2006-05-21T22:28:00.000+08:00

heez yest went momo wif sheena n fion haha .... thx raymond 4 e nite 4 being our chaffet n free supper . haha sheena n fion s sorry tt yest nite not much guys n i nv drink lo .... haha u all say so much haha u all gain most lo .... fion u ate a $10.90 bake rice lo sheena u more worst $12.90 special snack lo haha ... haha sheena u drank most vodka n gain entrance fee $ 18 .... fion gain a $10 shot ..... whahaha next time u all wan bring mi go where

2006-05-18T09:00:00.000+08:00

haiz yo i so angry lo ...... today i went to c my teacher he suddenly show mi microsoft word , dev c++ all these tel mi tt they r professional .... lolz while e tings i do is anyhow do de ... if tt's e case den y reject my project e day when i did someting profe ?
so i told him i tink mine is pro wat . den he say if u tink so ..... it's near there but nt yet !!!

2006-05-17T10:19:00.000+08:00

my dear motor irritate mi so much .... at 10am in e morin he called n talk to mi 3 min sayin he'll cal mi back so i replied tt u sure cal mi after veri long de he say "no la yi xia zi onli"so i waited ti 4pm later 4 his call . again he talk to mi 3 min n said cal mi back . i tolerate nvm .... den 6+ he called mi again n hung down 3 min after sayin his brother there . 7 when i was on e way to orchard i sms him told him i was alone ask him if he wans to cal mi ... he nv asn tt question lo .... i'm so angry lo like tt stil nvm 9+ he sms mi ask mi if i wan to visit him ... ask mi to take train to n forth i so angry !!!!! he nv tink tt dangerous lo

ok let's nt talk abt tis yest went out wif fion n sheena since like ages ago we 3 go out together, we meet 6+ they watch 5pm movie let mi wait ard 1 hr isnt it retard ? den i walk alone in cine so sianz so i went arcade n bought a tube from blossom so nice once i saw it i set my eyes on it , n bought it on e 2nd entrance heez ... den we went far east to collect e new peice so nice e tube heez ... den we went to galare as usual i gt "ka" again i drink a banana milkshake 5.5 haha so x lo they eat stil cheaper den mi den we went to take neoprint . i tink e 3 of us should nv hang out togehter so wrong .... haha

2006-05-16T08:52:00.000+08:00

haiz yo ... my xiao bai hospital ar ... he yest onli cal mi once den sms mi a few nia .... called mi 4pm say gg in A&E department .... den 1130 den cal again say go in operation ... qi si wo ar ... last min den cal ...

i so ke lian his mc 1 mth ar ... den no pp send mi to sch no pp eat lunch with mi .... sad sad

2006-05-15T15:39:00.000+08:00

hey hey my lastest work pls grade

2006-05-10T08:39:00.000+08:00

haiz yo my 4rd rejectionship , e black color is mine .... tis time worst ar my teacher says it's ugly !!!ugly meh he wans artistic so i giv him la den he say ugly .... lol haha i slept from yest 830 til 730 leh haha but stil veri tire

2006-05-09T08:42:00.000+08:00

yest i went chong pang nasi with kent they all , when we were gg back tt time. guess who i saw
i saw ivan n jaz lo , ivan whom disappear from mi such a long time. e first ting i asked him was "u gt $ pay mi ma"
as expected his ans is always "no"
but i saw his hair is golden n long , i was wonderin if he's reali tt poor tt describe to me y does he stil hv e $ to dye his hair golden n cut it in shape lo , e ans to my question by jaz was , u go ask eric .
ivan said he n jaz shared e dye together but den when i took off jaz's cap , his hair color was red lo .... how could e same hairdye produce 2 diff color . e best ting is wat ? e best ting is ivan stil tel mi don gan cheong "man man lai" ar ..... i wan vommit blood liao lo has been 3-4mths stil man man lai .....

so he says he'll pay mi once he has e $ next mth when he gt his pay , well ..... we shall c lo

2006-05-05T16:53:00.000+08:00

haiz yo so borin sia ........ lc nv come , zw nv come , tony duno do wat , den rena go eat snake leave mi alone in lab talk to my blog lol ... so sianz today rainin nv eat wif motor so i ate at 2+ so hungry sia .....
today i gt rejected again by my supervisor le he says it's nt intergrated n too much fun he wans someting more professional .... lol . his demands r gettin more n more ridiculous . tis time he expect mi to giv him movin backgound, box in a whole but with proper shape hai yo i where know how to do lol ... my latest design

2006-05-03T14:55:00.000+08:00

u all c my design nice ma ? i showed my sup both he say not nice nt up to standard ask mi use adobe u c la he isit siao

siao liao le

2006-05-02T08:49:00.000+08:00

hai yo juz now i go c my sup guess wat he says :

sup : how is it

mi : nt gg veri well

sup : n fact i gt alternative 4 u , e gy interface make it nicer. i'll come back in e afternoon to u

y y y ... he ar ....... i duno hw to say ar
qi si wo le

2006-05-02T08:32:00.000+08:00

veri sian ar ..... my project duno how to do , andrew aso duno how to do haha now onli can pray tt bryan (lc fren) can help mi le ....
sheng ar ..... jiu jiu wo ar ....

now onli week 8 nia , 4 more weeks to go !!! will i make it ma ? my sup keep sayin will fail mi , my idiotic partner eeeeeeeeeeee who is veri "kind" to mi . when i sms him ask him help mi tel teacher i'm sick , he veri gentlymanly called mi , asked mi 4 my pw in sch to use my com , and tel mi tt he told sir tt he duno y i nv come ... c how kind is he . how i wish nt to c his stuck - up face one day .....

i study so long nv so hard workin b4 leh lol onli mc 4 4days nia it has been 7weeks le lol c how much i take tis dyp as ...

hey pp if u guys wan to watch movie i recommend 8 below reali nice ar ... watch til i cried e dogs r so cuteeeeeeeeeeeeee n they reali act well hehe

2006-04-26T08:56:00.000+08:00

haiz ........ yest i went to find my supervisor he says wat i had done is nt enuf to pass lo it's veri easy .... den ask mi to do advance flash programing . so i ask him e advance falsh isit easy o nt , he say i duno , dun expect mi to know aso = ! =''' he duno expect mi to know meh

using flash programing to trigger wat vb has send . who understands ? omg tings r gettin harder ... den he says eeeeeeeeee de is easier den mine , c la isit he likes him more ........
so i ask him do we both pass he says no , we r nt qualiy to be yr 3 student n pass so i said we everyday come on time n go home latest he say tt's nt e key . so sadddddddddd. week7 le so fast but den if go attachment duno how le haha , perhaps i'll nt make it tis time

so sad

2006-04-25T17:36:00.000+08:00

so sad lo ......... i did my project le den now my supervisor demand more . it was user key in input den diff flash comes out. now becomes user input wif 1 flash onli meaing my flash hv diff modes and will change according to my input.
he is so bias tt can c lo , my partner eeeeeeeeeeee say he duno den he gives him e paper n help him start mi leh haiz ....... den if eeeeeeeeeeee nv comes he won bother to check mi at all lo ....
so sad

2006-04-20T08:59:00.000+08:00

wow ... fyp will die ar ... yest i went presentation so sad .... e marker say i duno anyting den it's nt enuf 4 fyp even a yr 1 student can do my flash . so i told him i nt doin flash onli i muz link them den e teacher say even linking them aso veri easy ....so saddddddddddd .....