Kelly's Blog

aiyo i'm bored ... so bored bored .... if onli we didnt end up in tt way , now stil gt pp talkin to mi over e phone . kind of late le ,but i cant zzz leh , gt no one to talk to mi i'm so lonely lol got to get out of tis shity mess soon , find one new , but where so easy to find !!! i called so many pp all wan zzz , if nt they outside , suan le ba

k i went to fu hai chalet durin e weekend it was kind of fun la , since long i hv such fun le heez , thx rena 4 acc mi go chalet stay , so long no catch up with chew siang aso le , did tarot with alot of them haha wei ming de most fun . got to know ann n cat too .thx fu hai ar 4 e treat aso ...

u all ar u all , rem wat my tarot say ar if nt waste my effort ar here r some tt i rem de haha :

rena ar : muz hv some courage to do tings ar u know wat to do le
lc : rem to face reality ar dun be too dependant on others dun live in ur own world
eric : ur passion is buring ar dun do tings 4 others onli muz spare a tot 4 ownself
dale : u r nt perfect ar u gt alot of flaws
fu hai : dun tink too much

as 4 mi so funi , they wil wan burn my card cuz i keep askin same ting everyday haha , but i stil duno wat to do ma , maybe i'll giv up a while ba den continue once everyting stablize le . hehee

haiyo ... tml is 26 le , 1 mth le he reject mi ... haiz 1 mth le i stil haven giv up yet kind of rare horz ? so long le i stil no die hope completely ... sian lehz see him in sch daily , if he wear til veri shuai i will haiz ....

lian hong xin tiao jia su ... aiyo ... nvm i wil giv up de ....
erm tis mth is a gd mth to celebrate u all know y ? cuz i single half a yr le , + he reject mi a mth le haha so tis is a mth to celebrate ...

hai yo ... ya la , i tried n miracle did nt happened , e response i gt was cold shoulder , cold shoulder n cold shoulder , he is shunning while i'm chasing
haha , how can they ever be together ??

i took 1 hour to ponder to cal him o nt ,
he took 1 min to finish e call.

i took 3 days to make spaghtti ,
he took 3 min to reply mi .

i took 3 weeks to have tots to giv up ,
he took onli 3 days to clear 4get mi.

haha tis kind of feelin is reali sucky , eric ar ... u know e world nid more positive pp , n sheena is e diff one . tat's y miracle nv happen to her b4 haha .. while fools like us who pin hopes at least wil hv someting to hope for .
erm .. for my future plan i duno to giv up o nt la since left onli 1 week to see him nia , anyway wait til i buy e tarot card den say ba heez ...

maybe i'm stil blur , foolish , gullible , but i'm hapi e way i m
rem pp k ? everyting gd o bad is mean to learn !!!
haha i tink i'm learned , n he makes mi learn even more tat u nv try there wil be no hope at all at least i tried , so i'm hapi !!!

lol , i did try , i cook spaghetti for him but stil he say "sorry i dun wan to hurt u anymore " haha i duno wat is stoppin him , maybe he already know tat we r nt suitable tt's y he choose to give up ba . but for mi i'm stil here waiting , perhaps i'll continue to try ba ... duno , but so far e response from him wasnt gd la ,

it's kind of hard to see him in class , smiling , lauffing while i feel hurt inside , so far he has nt contacted mi feel so sad , i went to pray leh , e lot say someone is stoppin us together and nid gui ren to help us , haha but who is gui ren who is xiao ren lol , so hard to find . anyway i aso duno wan to giv up o nt leh , wat u all tink ?

shall i giv them to him ? e cookies tat we make

eh y no pp read my blog de ar haha ... nvm at least i can write wif ease since no one is readin it lol ... haha ok .. michael n i r reali nt getting together , yup i'm kind of upset la , but i tried he stil says it's best 4 us to remain as frens , erm i duno wat to do la.... he says all these r words n nt actions lol ... how to prove , i gal gal la i shy shy aso lol .... i know i dun sound sad but i m lo , wat if i fail again if i try ?
wat if i try n he stil says " i appreaciate wat u hv done , but i tink it's best 4 us to be frens " ? i sure canot take it de ... i aso duno how a part of mi say keeps on tryin , another part says i might fail o maybe i should be real tis time say gd bye to these beautiful memories ba

eh yup i blog again le , so bored if i know holiday wil be so bored i should get a job lol now i stay at hm daily doin nth leh ... life is so sian , didi go le lol wich makes mi more bored n maybe we might nt end up together aso haha ... nvm ba ... i can learn to take tings easy .

pai sei ar eric ur bd i nv go , e stupid xian mei veri gd fren put mi aeroplane , but luckily i gt tze kent heez ... thx god ... we went bugis juz now and guan yuan drove us to eat prata , but den he kept on losin his way ... sch finally goin to start on wed le , but seem long to mi eh stil hv 4 more days to go . wonder wat i should do leh , and how to celebrate new yr eve aso , up til now no program yet .

tink i'm reali mean gal , cuz i hurt someone again unlike others , tis time haha tis person tel mi tis
" i won contact u much le , wat i wan i wil get , wat i canot get i rather dun wan , u r hurtin mi"
lol ... hahaha i swear i did nth ok !

however i tink tat at tis rate i'm goin i'll scare all e guys ard mi haha , so i decide to change 4 e better yeah ! erm well c how ba

I didn't want to be inside. I didn't want to be outside. I didn't want to be anywhere. I didn't want to kill myself, but I just felt like I didn't want to be anywhere. I didn't want anybody to be around me.

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ooo yeah . finally i make a come back le . tml til sun i go expo sell lappy anyone free go drop by ba. eh ... i veri sian leh i single 4 mths le hahah surprise rite ? i veri guai also no flirt flirt . i wan to change le , erm ... i wan to change frm a gal to a woman cuz someone tel mi tat i dress like a gal nt a woman ...

heez finally i blog le .... so hapi , sch start le wor now week 2 le , ok la my new class , gettin along fine with everyone . Lucky my project gt pp help mi to do if nt i duno how to cry ar ....
Eh , has been 3 mths since i'm single le .... but nvm i'll keep on waitin til 3 yrs de . So long nv go club le anyone wana go ? but best is stay yishun also la den can share cab .

i miss everyone so much , suddenly feel like so loner leh like no fren like tt , been busy with duno wat aso haha . mon to thu sch , fri , sat , sun aso duno do wat haha no time no time like tt . or rather to say i spend my time doin nth again ba.

my dear xian mei dun sad ar u gt mi stil , ur lover heez
my dear lc happi 7 mth aso ba wish u n zw wil be tgt long long
my dear rena wor.... hahahahhaha u know u know

today is my last day of work in imh le , quite sad cum hapi , sad cuz the pp here are gd , e job is slackin , and i wil miss tis place . hapi cuz i can slack at home le haha , hapi cuz i can find a higher pay job too :)

i so hapi abt my bd , although my wish did nt come thru my xiao bai didnt find mi at all
-cuz my colleuge whom know mi less den 3 weeks bought mi a cake which surprise me .
-ah bang bought me a cake too , and treat mi to supper hehe
-jia rong who brought mi a cake aso lol
-and my frens who gave mi a present tt i love , and thx dale for e efforts , haha althoug eric say nt nice however it's e thoughts tt counts lol.

e clubbing day was fantastic , i get to know a banker from australi , terence hook out some gals lol . poor specs guy i pity him ....

anyway thx there everyone :)

today last day le ... hehe e people here nt bad la haha ... i spend 12 weeks here doin nth lo .... tml goin to new enviroment le , goin IMH to work as a clerk , new experience . but e workin hours so long , nvm gt fren acc mi ( rena n lc) haha i so hapi .

REcently so many pp break up , 1 by 1 after me ... reali a curse lo , once hv stead all hv stead , once break all break aso . see we so united ... life goes on ... but i stil hope he comes back . lol many pp wan to scold mi liao for hvin tis tinking . haha

~~~ As u nv know tml tings so no point pondering so much today rite ? ~~~

since 8 days , we have broken up . People dun worri about me . i onli shi lian ma , nt e first time aso la juz that tis time i was happier , i climb higher and fell much more harder nia . u all know mi de rite , i'm a bitch so my ability to recover is quite high la.

sorri pp nv go sentosa wif u all cuz my mood nt gd , but once i free i sure go de . u all goin every sun rite ? and my dear eric , if u c tis i wan to tel u that day when i broke up , u send mi a sms saying "li chuan wat happen to kelly and her boyfriend " i feel like killin u sia , send wrong sms at wrong time. anyway thx 4 e concern .

den i wan to wait for my ex . i wan stay single for 3 yrs but i know no pp believe me la . he veri cruel ar delete all our pic from my com so sad .but i tink i stil like him alot la .ya lo tat should be it la

anyway these are e pp that i wan to giv a big thx to 4 scoldin mi and being wif me . muz put kent's name first if nt he angry

kent
sheena
fion
alan
lichuan
rena
xian mei

and a small one to eric although he send e wrong sms at wrong time to e wrong person . and vinc n max

ya lo thx alot ar heeez

haiz ... 5 days without he , day and nite i kept cryin . i duno y , e moment i tink of him i'll cry , on bus at work toilet everywhere. haiz i miss him alot whenever i on my hp there wil nv be news of him .

my days are so miserable , i love him alot miss him alot .we agree to marry , agree to go aboard , agree to celebrate my bd so many tings we agree on . he say he wil send mi home after he return to work , spend lesser time wif me but wil stil acc mi , so many tings it's nt 4get den can 4get .

even i drink lemon tea i'll tink of him. i no longer eat my fav food cuz i tink of him. on express way i can c myself on his bike holdin on to him . so many memories , all gone , say gone n it is gone. how can love be so harsh when we use to be so close ?

how can he be so cruel to me , dissappear in thin air like tt, even promise to stay as frens but shun me when i contact him . so many tings he lied to me , i reali cant believe tis when e person closet to u , beside u wil be someone that hurt u so deep so deep

its all over mi n him . we are nt gg to be tgt anymore. tt's it i'm single again lol , anyone wan help mi find boi boi ma ?

i veri veri sad ar , nv been better . anyone who knws mi wil know how much i love him , how much effort i put in . but wat is nt meant to be is nt meant to be . nvm ... i tink i nid silence , time to tink through . air to breath .

over is over ......

haiyo ... veri busy ar . been busy quarrellin wif xb lol, he keep no time 4 mi den fion n sheena say he gt gal outside i sob sob .

my boss siao again leh , after i wear slipper for 6 weeks den he say mi so i change shoe lo so pain.nvm stil .
he ask mi to clear table b4 tml 8 am but i start work at 9 leh. den he say unwanted paper should be thrown away , so he veri smart he pick up on e floor den throw back to e floor again i so angry lo , where gt pp liek tt de.

week 3 le at least i'm 1/4 way thu rite ? haiz yo here veri bored ar nth to eat. know wat ? week 1 i eat 4 days kway tiao dry , 1 day mix veg rice. week 2 i eat 2 days kway tiao dry , 2 day rice , 1 day mee hoon goreng , week 3 i eat 1 day mee hoon goreng , 1 day rice , 3 days kway tiao dry . best of all even the canteen aso sell 2 food nia , mee hoon goreng n mix rice lol.

so basically every week i onli eat 3 kinds of food , veri sian ar help !! i wan kfc , bake rice sob sob , how am i goin to spend another 9 weeks here eating e same tings ??

sat is such an exciting day , moring i went FT with LC , haha e FT say i hot temper ask mi listen to my mama say i can go aboard study if i put in effort but last sem liao my gpa onli 1.78 nia study sai ar haha.

den i went rena hz do cookies,chocolate n oreal cheescake. e cookies ok la mama say nt fragrance n sweet enough , chocolate total failure ar haha rena la ask her melt she dun wan say use hot water. haha e cheescake aso nt success la.

so fast i know motor 1-2 a yr le , yest plan to celebrate de , but last min he say muz cancel . i so angry !!! haiz week 2 thu nia omg so many days to go how to surive, veri long didnt go out le leh anyone wan go out ma haha, werid great sg sales but no pp ask mi go out leh so pathetic , ren yuan bu hao

heez long long no blog le ... eeeeeee attachment at sengkang so suay so far , somemore pay lowest ar 420 nia sucks , i'm workin as an auditor now , so sianz but lucky e company onli gt 4 pp includin moi , sometimes they all go fix mrt den i alone in office . quite satisfying cuz i can sing song ar lol . workin hours is 9-6 anyone lives near sengkang ? wan find mi eat lunch ma o send mi home lol .omg week 2 onli 10 more weeks to go

heez yest went momo wif sheena n fion haha .... thx raymond 4 e nite 4 being our chaffet n free supper . haha sheena n fion s sorry tt yest nite not much guys n i nv drink lo .... haha u all say so much haha u all gain most lo .... fion u ate a $10.90 bake rice lo sheena u more worst $12.90 special snack lo haha ... haha sheena u drank most vodka n gain entrance fee $ 18 .... fion gain a $10 shot ..... whahaha next time u all wan bring mi go where

haiz yo i so angry lo ...... today i went to c my teacher he suddenly show mi microsoft word , dev c++ all these tel mi tt they r professional .... lolz while e tings i do is anyhow do de ... if tt's e case den y reject my project e day when i did someting profe ?
so i told him i tink mine is pro wat . den he say if u tink so ..... it's near there but nt yet !!!