Kelly's Blog

aiyo i juz realise i no tag board leh !!! hahah nevertheless thx ken 4 e skin ... sori ar pp giv him sometime i tink he wil make a tag board 4 moi de hehe

aiya i'm so upset lo i have been gd tis yr so no gifts for mi this vday so quiet lol unlike last yr . single life nt reali tt gd but i have been like tt 4 half a yr le . however gd gal life isnt much better .i rejected 3 dates tis yr , hopin tat tat idioit wil turn back . shit , sucky

well today is e last day i see him , everytin is over ... he stil wear til so nice , u know i like guys wif jeans , tees , long sleeve shirt . but den again haiz no more le la .... sob sob .... how i wish tat he is mine but i tink he should be gg out wif some gals out there ba

haha finally i wash my hair , has been 2 days le wor ,aiyo damn damn heart broken again , heard from zhi wei tat maybe mike has a new target le cuz his msn nick ... n i tot so too if nt he won so heartless ba .... haiz

ok i went clubbin last nite wif dale n javier so sian rite ? onli we 2 but luckily they gt fren there gt to sky too :) saw a guy who i tink is kinda cute but all of them say looks terriblely ugly lo i tink there is someting wrong with my taste ba as usually

some pics last nite

aiyo ... i'm so damn heart broken , no matter wat i do , how hard i try stil e same , yup i said i won giv up . i didnt , i went rena hz n baked my second set of cookies , get wee tat ching to giv it to him , but he says he dun wan on diet !!!

i didnt flirt ard la e guys whom i hang out wif onli dale , ming , eric n these pp nia .... n i actually changing , trying hard to save the broken relationship . i nv done such things b4 , so damn damn damn damn it , stupid mi .

aiya .. should i stay o should i go ? if onli u read tis ar ... idioit ... u r turnin my life upside down , maybe u r juz nt worth mi ... can anyone, tell mi should i giv up ? o die hard trying ?

went study yest , butt itchy called fion lol tt stupid eric la .... i tink she gt mood swing sia suddenly scold mi , i tink maybe bcuz i was disturbing her wif her date la (but she wouldnt admit tt ) lol. she told mi " u wil nv get didi la he's foolin wif u " although i agree but i won giv up de la . eh but i duno wat to do too cuz he's givin mi cold shoulder . but den again nvm la .

aiyo new yr comin , went to buy cny clothes with lc they all haha jaz say my dress look like song ka de so sad . n my shoes dun fit leh , 1 comin out 1 too tight .sob sob how how ?

valentine comin le wor i tink i should be spend wif my books ba , to tink of last yr i spent it wif xb n cny eve we even went to watch fireworks . i tink tis yr wil be much much diff ba . nvm reduce my bad karma like wat fion say !! hor hor beware of urself too hor , wat goes ard comes ard ...
so long no hang out wif them le wonder how r they ar . ken , lan , na , fion no nid wori la i know she gt her own entertainment hahaha ....

aiyo i'm bored ... so bored bored .... if onli we didnt end up in tt way , now stil gt pp talkin to mi over e phone . kind of late le ,but i cant zzz leh , gt no one to talk to mi i'm so lonely lol got to get out of tis shity mess soon , find one new , but where so easy to find !!! i called so many pp all wan zzz , if nt they outside , suan le ba

k i went to fu hai chalet durin e weekend it was kind of fun la , since long i hv such fun le heez , thx rena 4 acc mi go chalet stay , so long no catch up with chew siang aso le , did tarot with alot of them haha wei ming de most fun . got to know ann n cat too .thx fu hai ar 4 e treat aso ...

u all ar u all , rem wat my tarot say ar if nt waste my effort ar here r some tt i rem de haha :

rena ar : muz hv some courage to do tings ar u know wat to do le
lc : rem to face reality ar dun be too dependant on others dun live in ur own world
eric : ur passion is buring ar dun do tings 4 others onli muz spare a tot 4 ownself
dale : u r nt perfect ar u gt alot of flaws
fu hai : dun tink too much

as 4 mi so funi , they wil wan burn my card cuz i keep askin same ting everyday haha , but i stil duno wat to do ma , maybe i'll giv up a while ba den continue once everyting stablize le . hehee

haiyo ... tml is 26 le , 1 mth le he reject mi ... haiz 1 mth le i stil haven giv up yet kind of rare horz ? so long le i stil no die hope completely ... sian lehz see him in sch daily , if he wear til veri shuai i will haiz ....

lian hong xin tiao jia su ... aiyo ... nvm i wil giv up de ....
erm tis mth is a gd mth to celebrate u all know y ? cuz i single half a yr le , + he reject mi a mth le haha so tis is a mth to celebrate ...

hai yo ... ya la , i tried n miracle did nt happened , e response i gt was cold shoulder , cold shoulder n cold shoulder , he is shunning while i'm chasing
haha , how can they ever be together ??

i took 1 hour to ponder to cal him o nt ,
he took 1 min to finish e call.

i took 3 days to make spaghtti ,
he took 3 min to reply mi .

i took 3 weeks to have tots to giv up ,
he took onli 3 days to clear 4get mi.

haha tis kind of feelin is reali sucky , eric ar ... u know e world nid more positive pp , n sheena is e diff one . tat's y miracle nv happen to her b4 haha .. while fools like us who pin hopes at least wil hv someting to hope for .
erm .. for my future plan i duno to giv up o nt la since left onli 1 week to see him nia , anyway wait til i buy e tarot card den say ba heez ...

maybe i'm stil blur , foolish , gullible , but i'm hapi e way i m
rem pp k ? everyting gd o bad is mean to learn !!!
haha i tink i'm learned , n he makes mi learn even more tat u nv try there wil be no hope at all at least i tried , so i'm hapi !!!

lol , i did try , i cook spaghetti for him but stil he say "sorry i dun wan to hurt u anymore " haha i duno wat is stoppin him , maybe he already know tat we r nt suitable tt's y he choose to give up ba . but for mi i'm stil here waiting , perhaps i'll continue to try ba ... duno , but so far e response from him wasnt gd la ,

it's kind of hard to see him in class , smiling , lauffing while i feel hurt inside , so far he has nt contacted mi feel so sad , i went to pray leh , e lot say someone is stoppin us together and nid gui ren to help us , haha but who is gui ren who is xiao ren lol , so hard to find . anyway i aso duno wan to giv up o nt leh , wat u all tink ?

shall i giv them to him ? e cookies tat we make

eh y no pp read my blog de ar haha ... nvm at least i can write wif ease since no one is readin it lol ... haha ok .. michael n i r reali nt getting together , yup i'm kind of upset la , but i tried he stil says it's best 4 us to remain as frens , erm i duno wat to do la.... he says all these r words n nt actions lol ... how to prove , i gal gal la i shy shy aso lol .... i know i dun sound sad but i m lo , wat if i fail again if i try ?
wat if i try n he stil says " i appreaciate wat u hv done , but i tink it's best 4 us to be frens " ? i sure canot take it de ... i aso duno how a part of mi say keeps on tryin , another part says i might fail o maybe i should be real tis time say gd bye to these beautiful memories ba

eh yup i blog again le , so bored if i know holiday wil be so bored i should get a job lol now i stay at hm daily doin nth leh ... life is so sian , didi go le lol wich makes mi more bored n maybe we might nt end up together aso haha ... nvm ba ... i can learn to take tings easy .

pai sei ar eric ur bd i nv go , e stupid xian mei veri gd fren put mi aeroplane , but luckily i gt tze kent heez ... thx god ... we went bugis juz now and guan yuan drove us to eat prata , but den he kept on losin his way ... sch finally goin to start on wed le , but seem long to mi eh stil hv 4 more days to go . wonder wat i should do leh , and how to celebrate new yr eve aso , up til now no program yet .

tink i'm reali mean gal , cuz i hurt someone again unlike others , tis time haha tis person tel mi tis
" i won contact u much le , wat i wan i wil get , wat i canot get i rather dun wan , u r hurtin mi"
lol ... hahaha i swear i did nth ok !

however i tink tat at tis rate i'm goin i'll scare all e guys ard mi haha , so i decide to change 4 e better yeah ! erm well c how ba

I didn't want to be inside. I didn't want to be outside. I didn't want to be anywhere. I didn't want to kill myself, but I just felt like I didn't want to be anywhere. I didn't want anybody to be around me.

http://men.msn.com/articlees.aspx?cp-documentid=1628449

ooo yeah . finally i make a come back le . tml til sun i go expo sell lappy anyone free go drop by ba. eh ... i veri sian leh i single 4 mths le hahah surprise rite ? i veri guai also no flirt flirt . i wan to change le , erm ... i wan to change frm a gal to a woman cuz someone tel mi tat i dress like a gal nt a woman ...

heez finally i blog le .... so hapi , sch start le wor now week 2 le , ok la my new class , gettin along fine with everyone . Lucky my project gt pp help mi to do if nt i duno how to cry ar ....
Eh , has been 3 mths since i'm single le .... but nvm i'll keep on waitin til 3 yrs de . So long nv go club le anyone wana go ? but best is stay yishun also la den can share cab .

i miss everyone so much , suddenly feel like so loner leh like no fren like tt , been busy with duno wat aso haha . mon to thu sch , fri , sat , sun aso duno do wat haha no time no time like tt . or rather to say i spend my time doin nth again ba.

my dear xian mei dun sad ar u gt mi stil , ur lover heez
my dear lc happi 7 mth aso ba wish u n zw wil be tgt long long
my dear rena wor.... hahahahhaha u know u know

today is my last day of work in imh le , quite sad cum hapi , sad cuz the pp here are gd , e job is slackin , and i wil miss tis place . hapi cuz i can slack at home le haha , hapi cuz i can find a higher pay job too :)

i so hapi abt my bd , although my wish did nt come thru my xiao bai didnt find mi at all
-cuz my colleuge whom know mi less den 3 weeks bought mi a cake which surprise me .
-ah bang bought me a cake too , and treat mi to supper hehe
-jia rong who brought mi a cake aso lol
-and my frens who gave mi a present tt i love , and thx dale for e efforts , haha althoug eric say nt nice however it's e thoughts tt counts lol.

e clubbing day was fantastic , i get to know a banker from australi , terence hook out some gals lol . poor specs guy i pity him ....

anyway thx there everyone :)

today last day le ... hehe e people here nt bad la haha ... i spend 12 weeks here doin nth lo .... tml goin to new enviroment le , goin IMH to work as a clerk , new experience . but e workin hours so long , nvm gt fren acc mi ( rena n lc) haha i so hapi .

REcently so many pp break up , 1 by 1 after me ... reali a curse lo , once hv stead all hv stead , once break all break aso . see we so united ... life goes on ... but i stil hope he comes back . lol many pp wan to scold mi liao for hvin tis tinking . haha

~~~ As u nv know tml tings so no point pondering so much today rite ? ~~~

since 8 days , we have broken up . People dun worri about me . i onli shi lian ma , nt e first time aso la juz that tis time i was happier , i climb higher and fell much more harder nia . u all know mi de rite , i'm a bitch so my ability to recover is quite high la.

sorri pp nv go sentosa wif u all cuz my mood nt gd , but once i free i sure go de . u all goin every sun rite ? and my dear eric , if u c tis i wan to tel u that day when i broke up , u send mi a sms saying "li chuan wat happen to kelly and her boyfriend " i feel like killin u sia , send wrong sms at wrong time. anyway thx 4 e concern .

den i wan to wait for my ex . i wan stay single for 3 yrs but i know no pp believe me la . he veri cruel ar delete all our pic from my com so sad .but i tink i stil like him alot la .ya lo tat should be it la

anyway these are e pp that i wan to giv a big thx to 4 scoldin mi and being wif me . muz put kent's name first if nt he angry

kent
sheena
fion
alan
lichuan
rena
xian mei

and a small one to eric although he send e wrong sms at wrong time to e wrong person . and vinc n max

ya lo thx alot ar heeez

haiz ... 5 days without he , day and nite i kept cryin . i duno y , e moment i tink of him i'll cry , on bus at work toilet everywhere. haiz i miss him alot whenever i on my hp there wil nv be news of him .

my days are so miserable , i love him alot miss him alot .we agree to marry , agree to go aboard , agree to celebrate my bd so many tings we agree on . he say he wil send mi home after he return to work , spend lesser time wif me but wil stil acc mi , so many tings it's nt 4get den can 4get .

even i drink lemon tea i'll tink of him. i no longer eat my fav food cuz i tink of him. on express way i can c myself on his bike holdin on to him . so many memories , all gone , say gone n it is gone. how can love be so harsh when we use to be so close ?

how can he be so cruel to me , dissappear in thin air like tt, even promise to stay as frens but shun me when i contact him . so many tings he lied to me , i reali cant believe tis when e person closet to u , beside u wil be someone that hurt u so deep so deep